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In the Water
A couple months ago I sat seemingly paralyzed on my couch at home in space that once felt so peaceful and warm. My smile was drained from my face and my body flowed with cooled blood… only warmed by the unexplainable tears that rolled down my face. Numbed past the point of fighting… “My stillness will move me”… were the only words I was able to conjure in a moment so distant from all that once felt so good.
For anyone who is into myspace, my page as well as my bands page was completely blank… sometimes a fresh start and perspective is just the medicine you need in life. Im not gone, the band is not gone but the need for this stillness came as everything around me felt so wrong. I haven’t been able to write this column in months, look at the beauty around me, write my poetry or songs, draw or even open up to the people so close and dear to me. I felt as though my light had just shut off. Had age gotten me or maybe my abundance of energy just ran out?
Even though I am a total workaholic, my personal life always comes first. The result of how you are living inadvertently always effects what you do. The result of how I have been living, with my history of codependency, had completely sucked me dry. This depth of water that I slowly sank into was effecting what I do so much so, that my precious drive and passion floated high above my head and the weight of history hanging from my feet was so heavy, it kept them out of reach.
I was drowning in water that appeared to be the surroundings of what life had done to me and my will to reach this place high above it. Land I will deserve once I get there. I have had it in my head for years that once I achieve the difference and purpose I feel is so necessary out of my life, then I can really enjoy it, but until then I will wade as hard as I can.
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Posted: July 26th, 2008 at 4:01 pm by Ang — No Comments // Post Comment »
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As I look out the window of my early morning flight, headed home to Los Angeles from a weekend of work and play in Canada, I silently scream “Codependent NO MORE” at the peaceful snowflakes falling to the ground.
Ok, so maybe I need to back up just a little bit, lol.
As a women in the wrestling business, you’ll find our basic mold to be pretty similar… strong, independent, motivated, perfectionist, empowered and in some cases, codependent.
In a nut shell a codependent person is basically a caretaker, fix it person, problem solver, control freak, independent person with people depending on them whether it be emotionally, physically or financially. As they think they are helping and keeping everything in control…they are not truly in control with dependent people manipulating them. Codependents are really just weighing themselves with worry for others and a form of low self worth they may not even be aware of. Read the rest of this entry »
Posted: February 5th, 2008 at 10:14 pm by Carol — No Comments // Post Comment »
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Ever since New Years morning 2008, I felt like something fresh was sitting inside of me. I have never been one for New Years resolutions, as I have always felt that if I wanted to change or do something… I would just do it. And yet, I have been feeling the brewing of a different perspective on “the list” that I feel is necessary every day, regardless of the New Year.
So, every time I would sit down to write what this feeling was… it would collect into a mess of what I already know. It just didn’t feel like the freshness I woke up with. My feeling wasn’t so much of wanting a resolution as it was that I just simply wanted to look at a blank piece of paper, a blank idea. So as the sun fades under my mess of thought, I tear out the cluttered pages in my journal and throw them away. I throw them away with the blank pages still intact, as I light a vanilla scented candle and sit on my couch, wanting to see this empty “to do” list in front of my face.
Sitting cozy wrapped up in PJ’s and my fuzzy red blanket, I stare at it’s blank pages. I started thinking about my friends that I give advice to. Do you ever find yourself giving advice to a friend when the answer feels so apparent and obvious? If I am not going to write a list of change from my perspective, then how do I find perspective on my own life that is probably obvious? Without thinking of my life as something I wanted to change, because you can always be stubborn to the advice you don’t want to hear. I started asking myself questions.
My journal’s empty pages began coming alive with all the questions I wanted to ask myself like, a caring friend igniting an honest answer. Answers that didn’t need to be written down, because the purpose is not the scary 180 degrees dive of change. The purpose is to have a fresh perspective for a clear direction of choice.
Happy that my New Year is not burden with the thought of change, I lay my head back on the rest arm of my couch. Looking out the window of my condo, the evening air surrounds the still trees. My mind and the night is so calm, that all I feel is that fresh feeling that needs no words. A feeling that will never be wilted or tired with the natural progression of life, because the feeling is… a blank page of whatever I want it to be. A blank page that can be filled with questions to my best friend… do you have any questions you’d like to ask yourself?
written by; Christy Hemme
Posted: January 26th, 2008 at 3:02 am by Carol — No Comments // Post Comment »
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Behind the closed doors of our ladies locker room there is always much more going on than even the Knockouts realize. With no pre-tapes or photo shoots, I thought I would take the opportunity to see exactly what goes on inside our locker room. Undercover with my agenda, I sat quietly in the corner of the small room filled with girls and bags and waited to see just how interesting it is for the lucky flies on our walls.
The truth of the matter is that our locker room has really changed in the past couple months. We went from a couple years with only 4 girls to a bevy of 15 girls. I can say that honestly we were a little nervous about all the new girls coming in because we have all experienced other locker rooms before… selfish and negative. We knew ours was very different. With a strong foundation based on support and love, I can proudly say that I have true friends I would do anything for in this business, something we all agree is important to maintain. We would do anything to protect it.
As girls were added to the roster, they could instantly see and shockingly comment on the difference of our very special locker room. It was like even the hard exterior needed to stay strong in the business, melted away with the idea that something could be different. TNA is different in every aspect and for the wrestlers treated no differently than office or crew… anyone added to our family warms to the special that is TNA.
As is sit in the corner disguised with my computer and my always silent observing eye, all the usual that you would love to see happen, happened lol, beautiful women running in and out of the revolving door. Clothes flying and bare bodies rushing to be ready for their part in the show, whether it was getting ready for a pre-tape or getting into the ring to perfect this ever blossoming Women’s Division, that I might add is kicking ASS!! But the one thing I noticed outside of the mad rush that is the day of TV, was new friendships shaping with moments transfered and shared in the positive atmosphere we refused to let go of. I watched as the women shared their collective ideas, camaraderie and push to make the show the best it could be. And in between the moments that make this a cohesive unit were also moments of each of our personal lives, brought from all over the United States. An escape that no matter what was going on at home, we could all come into that little room and share each others happiness or burden.
It was working! Not only do we hands down have the most talented Women’s Division ever seen, but we also have a classy, REAL care for each others well being that makes each of us individually that much stronger for what we all believe to be the best Professional Wrestling product in the world… TNA baby!!
And there it was, a tiny little room filled with the beginning of a very bright future. A bright future passed on to each new girl that walks through the door by the girls before them. And with that I want to say a very special thank you to Ms. Brooks and Gail Kim, the beautiful example I had to show me that this locker room could exist. They are truly the heart and definition of the beauty that is a “Knockout”… I love you two to pieces, thank you for sharing everything you represent, with all of us!
XOXO, Christy
Posted: December 6th, 2007 at 10:36 pm by Carol — No Comments // Post Comment »
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I have been in wrestling for almost 4 years now. Time sure does fly when you’re having fun! Wrestling has given me the opportunity to travel the world, meet some wonderfully diverse people and be a part of some incredible events. But in the vast vision of where my career in wrestling has lead me, my time has never felt more special than it does at this moment.
TNA has grown faster than anyone could imagine and has proven itself to be the new face of professional wrestling. We are driven with action-packed wrestling but succeeding with the fresh vivacious energy that responds to it. That fresh energy continues to grow with everyone involved; superstars, crew, office, but most importantly you… the fans. Read the rest of this entry »
Posted: October 28th, 2007 at 2:50 pm by Carol — No Comments // Post Comment »
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